Sunday, May 26, 2013

Thanks for your prayer. 
I have been experiencing a major financial meltdown for over 2 years now and was angry for the decisions I made that got me in this mess. If I am completely honest, I was mad at Jehovah for allowing me to go through this. I lost my mother the day after Mother’s day (May 13) and I had to borrow $ to catch a bus 1300 miles away to attend funeral.
Then I come home depressed and lonely. I looked at my bank acct and it was $-800.00 due to the state garnishing my bank acct. from a business I registered and just did not report that I was not doing anything with the DBA, so I got fined $900 to my surprise.
I have no friends; no one calls me but bill collectors so I don't answer my phone. And I have a daughter away at college struggling because I can't help her financially and we have to communicate on Facebook since she has no cell phone.
I am unemployed and getting some unemployment benefits but the fine  I incurred wiped out my benefit basically leaving me with no money for 2 months now. My car is 2 months past due, my house note will not be paid, insurance lapsed, HOA bill 2 yrs. behind, can't pay utilities, buy food, get medication for my diabetes & HBP, and severe allergies etc. even though I am getting unemployment check since May 3rd. I am penniless and but don't qualify for welfare.
I am educated with an MBA but can't buy a job and not sure why. The only jobs I had since August 2010 was this past September 2012 is  a temp job and then another temp job at Jackson Hewitt (Jan. to April) paying $9/hr. part time  and my basic bills exceed $2300/mo.
So compared to my life your absolutely blessed. But, then I went sleep refusing to eat, angry, bitter and crying but awakened with my dogs and felt better. Like I felt I have some hope. It is a weird peace. So, Jehovah is giving me peace even though I can't see what is going to happen to me next week. I wiped out my 401K and was able to tend to my Mom with a terminal illness before putting her in hospice in Ohio. And I was able to get to her funeral last week. 
I do have food and they have not cut off my utilities or reposes my car yet. I still have my house and was refinanced with a special program and I was able to make my May payment before the government garnishes my account.

I did get a call from an insurance company for a job this week.  A JW member loaned me $1500 to fix my transmission on my car.  I have the internet and of course the bible scriptures and a JW member to call that I study with. I guess God’s grace; Jehovah God’s grace is all I really need. So, thanks Jehovah for sustaining me and letting me know that you provide for me even when my financial situation is dismal. In Jesus name, Amen.